happy halloween!

Happy Halloween! I found this photobooth picture I took when the Halloween stickers came out at TJ's. I'm doing absolutely nothing for Halloween this year, apart from homework. I was going to watch a live feed of AMC's The Walking Dead, but I don't think I'll get back in town in time. For those who are celebrating, have fun, be safe, stay spooky!

almost halloween!

Someone left these butcher paper jack-o-lanterns all over the fine arts and architecture building yesterday! So cute, there were was even one on the mirror in the girl's bathroom. They made me smile. Sadly I am not doing anything for Halloween this year; no time or motivation but that's cause for an even crazier handful of Halloweens to come!

enid & edgar + joe

Tonight I went to a wonderful little vintage store with a sweet array of clothing, accessories, a giant OWL wall, a stage, and a side room where trees grow like it's the outdoors, drawings hang on the wall and feathers hang from the ceiling. The shop is called Enid & Edgar, and my friend Joe played an acoustic set there tonight, along with two other acts. It was the tiniest place for a show, almost like Joe was playing in his living room for a small group of friends. Very intimate and raw, and with all eyes on the lone performer it must have been terrifying/exhilarating. Joe stayed on pitch, never missed a beat, and even entertained a little to the audience which was super. This was an evening well-spent.

strange days

Why do I always feel compelled to blog during the middle of charrette? First image is a quick, basic rendering study, second is an interior view with a material map/texture added on. I just realized kind of looks like that orange safety/construction mesh, SHIT, but I guess it has potential to be...memorable. At least the last image looks semi-cool, amIright? Need to do a few more renderings now, and the rest of the night/morning will be devoted to cranking out diagrams.

tea, my current best friend

After feeling the onset of a sore throat last night I rushed to the store to pick up hydrogen peroxide, Zicam, and Throat Coat; I came home, made myself a cup of Throat Coat (organic! delicious!), gargled the hydrogen peroxide (2/3 H202, 1/2 H20), and after waiting half an hour, sprayed myself some Zicam. I felt a lot better today, I hope I was able to stave off the sickness...

I had a successful desk crit today, which justified my going to see Jónsi last minute with my sister, now I need to produce produce produce...!

jónsi

Second song, Jónsi on his guitar, a deer running from a wolf in the forest, a slow drumming build, then a sudden BLAST of light and a giant THOOM as the deer jumps and the wolf bounds after it. Instant tears. Thank you sistersaur for winning those tickets and asking me to come with you :).

feeling ghoulish

It's almost Halloween which means time to start not giving a fuck! I don't mean time to stop caring about everything that matters, but rather stop caring about things that really DON'T matter. Isn't it grossly apparent that I've been focused on the shittiest, most negative details of my life at large lately? The ignorant bitch in my sculpture class trying to bring me down (why is it that I often rub other Korean-American girls the wrong way? this calls for later further investigation...), a friend who takes little shots at me either to be funny or to feed his impossibly low self-esteem. Don't let them get to you, grow a rhino hide and let all the shit deflect/flake off and don't even acknowledge it. Start NOW.

(Sorry for the recent negativity/whining. This is a place for an outlet but I still feel like a jerk for spewing negativity and self-centeredness instead of being productive. USE IT AS FUEL!)

Moving on, if you like the Gummy Tummy Penguins from Trader Joe's, try the Ghoulie Gummy Tummies... orange & blackberry pumpkins and spiders. SO delicious (possibly even better than the penguins... that pesky lime!) and addicting. Mmm.

In other recent news, I made a breakthrough with my project IDEA and now have a shitload of stuff I need to produce over the weekend!

shake it off

just let it go

stop looking for things to justify your annoyance

not that it needs justification or you get angry over nothing

but just try to be the bigger person

because clearly, [this person] can't

I can't stress enough how fortunate I am to have an amazing support system of friends, family, loves in my life. In the previous post I was obviously agitated about a few things not going my way, which was wrong of me, but as I'm human I'm prone to this kind of behavior. My mom, my sister, my stepdad, my boyfriend, a handful of SC friends, a trusty handful of pre-college friends, one awesome person at work, my poopies... all keep me from going crazy, granted that they aren't making me crazy at the time. hehe. <3

wrath

I have seriously been losing hope in people. I can't depend on anybody but myself. I am the only constant that I am sure of, and half the time I'm not assured at all. I'm saying all this right now because I am angry, so when I wake up tomorrow and re-read this I will shake my head and say 'How wrong you are...' but at this moment, there is nobody I can trust or love or count on.

(n)ennui

celebrating the fact that I didn't actually break the iSight on my computer. whew!

After working an 8 hour shift today, being subtly cancelled on tonight (though to be fair these plans were never concrete), then eschewing an invitation to go out to write some reading responses in my room instead makes me think I've reached a new nadir of lameness, but I'm strangely okay with that. It's like ennui, but rather than being dissatisfied with my state of being, I am content. non-ennui. non-nui. (n)ennui.

the ORIGINAL shark socks

These socks are proof that my sister really gets me. They were one of a few things she got me for Christmas last year and they feature totally amazing details - check out those fins, eyes and teeth! If you remember from this post this is the first pair of shark socks I've ever had... hopefully the first of many (still at 2 here). Random anecdote, I was talking to my friend Eddie about a game we played when we were studying abroad in Asia - assigning everyone their 'totem' animals. I couldn't remember what mine was and Eddie said "Hana, you remind me of a dinosaur." I couldn't stop laughing; an extinct reptile, roaring/wreaking havoc and whatnot. I'm tired, and so glad it is Friday.

too many insignificant words; no substance; don't read!

The title of this post needs to be a post category...

I'm exhausted. I've been up since 4:30 am and upon getting off work I kind of took it easy for the afternoon, picking at a 1500 word essay that I should have turned in on Monday but have yet to e-mail off. I will by the end of tomorrow, which is what I said today. There's a slew of things I wanted to finish today but because of my wonderfully bi-polar work ethic that didn't happen. Too much happening - prolonged anger and aggression at one person, brought to a head through the most passive aggressive means possible, then resolved but as a consequence I'm wary of this person and I think I've lost a level of trust in said person; surprise at the expectations of one person and with it not being realized, panic at the seemingly-lost rationale in said person, which was mostly a lot of things being unsaid thus I overreacted scenario. Aren't these vague drawn-out blurbs about instances in my life with others fascinating? In retrospect they really irritate me but at the time I type them I find it really cathartic. It's that time of month again, and what with the weather freaking out at 113ºF then cooling to the 50s-60s and it raining I feel like the weather is reflecting my state of being too! (Because it's all about me, right? hah.)

Good things: I thought after slightly denting a corner of my laptop that I'd knocked out the video/webcam wiring but somehow it came back. I don't even know how. I think my boyfriend magically did it because he sent me a v-chat invitation and it just worked. So granted that it stays this way I'm saving a bunch of money in not having to fix the entire top portion of my MBP. fingers crossed. I'm going to attempt to finish this reading I need to have done for tomorrow, but if not I'll fall asleep reading it then rise early to finish it and REALLY get some shit done.